Chapter Three

I sat in the crowded noisy cafetria as I recall what had happened between Demetri and I this morning, I mean people only kiss eachother when they have feelings for eachother right? and I certainetly had no feelings for Demetri. I couldnt help and question the fact that maybe I did have feelings for him deep down but I'm just too stubborn to admit it, I mean I can't stop thinking about him ever since the kiss happened..
I guess i'm just scared of admitting my feelings fror him because i'm scared of getting hurt and I also feared for him because everyone that I love or care for always end up getting hurt because of me, I'm a danger to the people I love.

I wasn't always this way. I used to be a normal teen, the kind who had celebrity crushes, went out with friends and was always happy, I was always interested in boys and always dreamed about moving out of my parents house but I guess that when you loose your mother and sister in an accident that only you survived then it just gives you a whole new perspective of life.

''Hey, I was wondering if you wanted to come down to the beach with Jordan and I today?'' Katy asked as she grabbed the hood of my sweatshirt and swiped it off my head.

Katy is my bestfriend, we've been bestfriends ever since nursery. We became friends over colour pencils, she had the red colour pencil that I wanted to use and when I asked her for it she refused to share with me so I spilled black paint all over her work. We ended up getting in a fight that the nursery nurse Mrs Fisher had to stop and then Mrs Fisher forced us to apologise to eachother and we became friends ever since. After the accident Katy and  I slipped apart, We're still friends and everything but we're not as close as we used to be before and it's all my fault, I was hurting so much at the time that I didnt want anyone around me and I eventually pushed Katy away then she met Zoey and Charli and became friends with them. I guess she felt sorry for me because she still hangs around with me but she does everything with Zoey and Charli.

''Sorry, I can't. I've go to go dinner with dad'' I said to her as we both walked to lesson

''Oh.......Okay'' she said as she tried to hide the pain of rejection in her eyes

''BUT. I'm not doing anything on saturday'' I said

''Sorry, I've go to go Up town with Zoey for some college party''

''Oh, I see''

''But you can still come, I'm sure Zoey won't mind''

''No, It's fine. Have fun!'' I said as I tried to hide the pain in my voice

I didnt like the idea of Katy and Zoey hanging out together because ever since she's been hanging out with Zoey, all she's been doing is party and getting drunk. Sleeping around with boys and everything; Katy was better than that and I wanted to tell her so badly but I feared that she'd get upset and then i'll just end up pushing her away for good and that was the last thing that I want to happen.
Katy is the most beautiful girl i've ever seen well expect for my mum but Katy is so beautiful. She has dark black hair, dark blue eyes and a perfectly shaped body.

I pushed pass the students standing in the doorway of the class and then took my seat, I retrieved my notebook, pen and pencil from my bag and waited for Ms, Smith to appear. Demetri then walked in and so did Ms Smith, as Demetri walked in and took the seat right infront me I cringed as I remembered the kiss. I've been trying so hard to not think about it but my mind just seems to always wonder back to it. I bit my lips and tried to concentrate on what Ms Smith was saying but then Demetri turned around and looked at me then he flashed me a smile revealing his pefectly shpaed teeths that just took my breath away.
When the lesson finished, I grabbed my bag and headed out the school building as fast as I could,  I made my way to the parking lot and ignored Ashley as she laughed at me and called me a freak and spaz, I was used to her bitchness. As I walked over to my car, I noticed Demetri standing next to my car, I gulped as I approached him then I stopped and stared at him with arms crossed.

''What do you want?!'' I asked in a rude tone

''Well, We did kiss this morning, right?'' He said moving closer to me with his hands in his trouser then I couldnt help but notice his six pack that was screaming out underneath that sexy black T-shirt that he was wearing.

''Yeah, well it was NOTHING'' I said as I tried to not make eye contact with him because I am a terrible liar and I knew that the kiss was something because it got me thinking and feeling about him in a weird way but there was no way that I was going to admit it to him.

''The way you kissed me was something'' He said then he laughed charmingly and it made my heart vibrate and palms went sweaty

''WHAT?! woah there. Wait up, I did not kiss you. YOU KISSED ME!!'' I said angrily

''So, you're saying that the kiss was 'nothing'.'' He said then he moved closer to him

My heart began to race as I thought of the idea of him touching me, I could feel the heat off his body coming towards me. I could smell him, his scent surrounding me and making my thoughts focused only on him.

''Yeah that's exactly what I'm saying''

''SORRY! but I don't buy it, I find it hard to believe that you felt nothing from that kiss'' He said

I groaned annoyingly. I looked around the parking lot then I noticed that all the girls were looking at us, Some of them were whispering, some were laughing. I rolled my eyes then turned to face Demetri to set the record straight to him that the kiss really meant nothing.

''It was nothing, OKAY?! and just so we are cle....'' Before I could finish saying what I wanted to say. A voice coming from behind me cut us off

''What are you kids talking about?'' Ashley asked

I looked at her and rolled my eyes but she was smiling at me and the top that was wearing reaveled her whole cleavage which she was pointing directly in Demetri's direction and he was staring at her in a flirtateous way. I rollled my eyes, scoffed and stomped off then Ashley called me

''Anna, Wait!''

''What?'' I said, turning in her direction

''I know what time of the year it is. And well I just wanted you to know that Matt and I are throwing a memoral party for Gemma, You can come if you want to'' She said with a smile

I looked at her with pain in my eyes. I mean that was a very cheap shot, She was Gemma's bestfriend but one week after Gemma's death she started dating Matt who was Gemma's boyfriend at the time. When people at school confronted both of them about it, she said that she was just helping him deal with the ''Pain'' I rolled my eyes and kept on walking then got into my car and drove off.

On my way home. I blocked the memory of what Ashley had just said and then I decided to take the long way home, I decided to drive through bridgeway instead of neva road. As I approached the bridge, i parked my car and got out slowly then I walked on the bridge that was now fully repaired. As i stood staring at the bridge I remember the accident, I was looking at the bridge and all i could see was the accident.....

It was October 10th 2008, it was around midnight. The road was pitch black and mum's SUV was blasting through the road, we were all wearing our seatbelts. I watched from the outside as Mum turned around to talk to me and that was why she didnt notie the sign that read ''ROAD AHEAD CLOSED! DUE TO THE BRIDGE BEING REPAIRED'' Mum was busy talking to me and the next thing i know was that the car went flying and our airbags were out and the car was spinning out of mum's control then a loud crash was on the cars roof; a big oak tree had fallen on the car. The tree had spilt the car in two and then when i tried to move my whole body was in pain, I couldnt feel my toes or anything, the only thing i could see were tree brances, i couldnt see mum or Gemma, ''Mum!'' I cried out as i tried to move ''GEMMA'' i cried out but no one responded.  The last thing i remember was passing out and waking up to find myself in the back of an ambulance with paramedics shouting at me to keep me awake while they tried to stop the bleeding coming from my head and my leg.

Tears began to fall from my eyes as I looked at the bridge that was now fully repaired. If it wasnt for me then mum would have seen that sign. There was a honk coming from behind me, I looked around frightened then turned around quickly and wiped the tears away. I sniffed and stood still just staring at the bridge and wondering what might have happened if I hadnt been a bitch that night... Would mum have noticed the sign or would she have just carried on?

''Are you okay?'' a familar voice asked

''What! have you gone stalker on me now?!'' I asked without turning around because i realised who it was without turning around. My heart started doing a cartwheel so it must be Demetri.

''No. I was on my way and I notic---''

''I was only joking'' I said before he could finish talking

I dragged the hood of my sweatshirt further down my face, ''What's wrong?'' He said; and he sounded like he actually did care, it made me want to cry even more.

''Nothing'' I whispered then new tears started to fall from my eyes. He walked over to me and tried to look at me but I turned away refusing to show him that I was crying.....

''You can tak to me Anna, It's fine'' He said softly

I turned to look at him through tears and I could see it in his face that he actually cared. ''My Mum and sister passed away. In a ermmmm............... Car accident, I survived it though and they died, It all happened right here on this bridge'' I said in tears

''I'm sorry'' He said. I laughed through my tears

''GREAT! i actually thought you'd have something better to say but you said what everyone else said, they said sorry'' I said in tears

He then reached out and hugged me, Pulling me closer to his chest. I hugged him back, i loved the feeling of his big muscular arms around me crushing me. He hugged me and I couldnt help the tears that were falling from my eyes and soaking his perfectly smelt black T-shirt. His arms felt warm and protectively around me....
I could feel my tears soaking his T-shirt but he didnt let go off me, he just hugged me tigther. I pushed him a litte bit for him to let me go and then he did, I laughed and looked up at him through tears, he reached down and wiped my tears away with his hands, then he used his finger to trace the shape of my lips. The touch of his cold fingers made me shiver, we were both staring into eachother's eyes then he reached down and kissed me softly.

The feeling of his soft lips lingered slowly on mines, He then looked at me and the way he looked at me was like he was seeing the world or something. I could feel my heart doing a gallop as he smiled at me then I reached up to kiss him, Eager to feel the warmth of his soft lips against mines. As our lips were about to meet, my phone vibrated in my pocker causing me to jump up frigtened.

I looked at the caller ID, it was my dad. I walked away from Demetri to answer the phone

''YES?'' I said annoyed at the fact that dad had called.

''Where are you? I thought we said we'd go out for dinner tonight. Don't tell me that you're going to flunk out on  me?'' My father said

''Sorry, I forgot. I'll be there soon'' I said then hanged up before my dad could say anything else.

I turned towards Demetri and looked at him, he looked so beautiful as he stood there in full black. He was so beautiful that everytime I look at him my heart does a cart wheel and my palms get all sweaty and my knees go week... I waved bye to him and climb in my car and drove off. As i drove on the bridge I didnt feel scared of anything because all I could think about was Demetri..
When I reached home, i went straight to my bedroom, had a shower and got dressed for dinner with dad. I was in such a good mood that I decided to ditch the sweatshirt...
I headed downstairs where my father was waiting for me patiently, ''Ready?'' He asked

I smiled and headed outside the house then we both got into my dad's car. The journey wasn't longer than 15 minutes, Dad and I actually had a conversation throughout the whole journey, I was in such a good mood because of Demetri that i had forgotten how funny and charming my father really is.
My dad pulled up in the parking lot of the resturant, and parked his car then we got out and went to the reception where a brown haired woman stood. She directed my dad and I to our table and then we waited for the menu to arrive.

''Welcome to Midnight Munch, May i take your order?'' a blonde hair waitress said to us

''AH! i will have the ermmmm Chicken terriaki with a very well dressed salad'' my dad said then he handed over the menu to the waitress

''I'll just have a plain chicken salad''  I said

I looked around the restuarant as I waited for our food to arrive and then i noticed that Demetri and Ashley was sitting four tables away from us. I could feel my heart sinking in my chest as I stared  at them, she took a bite of her meal and Demetri was smiling then he reached over and played with Ashley's long fake blonde hair then he took up a rose off the table and handed it to her and he bent over the table and kissed her. I gulped and stared with tears in my eyes, I could feel the pain in my heart as I came to the realisation that my happiness was over and all I wanted to do was to go home and hide beneath my sweatshirt hood.....How could he do this? How could I have been so stupid to think that a boy like him would be interested in someone like me?........