Chapter 6

I woke up and got dressed for school then went down into the kitchen where my father was sitting down having breakfast. ''Morning'' I whispered as I walked over to the refrigerator.

''I saved you a pancake'' My father said

''Thanks'' I smiled then took the pancake and began to munch it down.

''Listen, About lastnight''

''It's okay dad, You don't have to talk about it'' I said as I took another bite of my pancake

''We do honey, Look. One of my work colleagues Coleen thinks that we should both see a theraphist together''

I stopped chewing on my pancake and looked up at him ''You're joking right?''

''Look Anna, we have to talk to someone about this'' He said

''NO! Dad No! Okay! we can talk to eachother. We don't need some stupid people looking down at us and trying to help us! we're FINE!, we don't need help'' I screamed at him

''It's whats best for us, it's whats best for you.. Okay. I'm a mess Anna and you need a healthy parent. This could really help us''

''I'm fine. We're FINE!''

''Let's just go and see what it's like, Okay. If you don't like it, We'll stop. But we have to do something to fill the distance between us''

''Distance?!'' I laughed

''The decisons been made. and that's final, we have an appointment with the therapist tomorrow at 6pm'' He said strictly giving me that look which showed that he was serious.

''Well, I'm not going'' I said childishly then I grabbed my bag off the ground and left the house. I climbed into my car and drove off.

I was angry at the fact that he had the nerves to talk about a theraphist when we could just discuss it between eachother, We didnt need anyone else interferring and the last thing I wanted to do was to sit down with a stranger and tell them how I felt, All they would do is make up some shit to try and help me because they end up getting paid for it, Why tell them how I feel when they don't even care, they're strangers to you and either way they get paid.

I pulled up in the school's parking lot and got out. I went to my locker and slammed my books down and retrieved the ones I needed for period 1.

''Wow, someone's in a bad mood'' Katy laughed

''Argh..!!'' I said as I tried to catch my breath

''What's wrong?'' she asked and she didnt even sound like she cared

''It's my dad, He booked us for this errr....Theraphist and I just think it's stupid'' I sighed

''Maybe it's a good thing''

''What's that supposed to mean?'' I asked, crossing my arms and staring at her angrily

''You're a mess dude'' She said

I stared at her mouth opened wide and not having anything to say, She smiled and walked off leaving me standing there with tears in my eyes. I expected her to agree with me and to say something to comfort me or something but instead she just made it worse. I licked my lips and took a deep breath in; trying to not allow the tears that filled my eyes to fall.... I went to my lesson; hoping that Demetri would show up and make my day better but he didnt show up. I sat still in the class filled with students who were enaged in the normal world but all I wanted to do was to runaway and hide in the dark.

Lunch time came and still no Demetri. ''He's gone'' I thought to myself, he couldnt face me so he left... I thought of possible explanations as to why he isnt in school but all I could do was blame myself for his absence and I just felt worse and worse. I sat at the empty canteen table beside the rubbish bin with my face in my hands...

''Freak'' someone said as they walked pass me...

I ignored them and reamined seated then when the bell rang for period 5. I went to my science lessson, Mr Donovan paired us in groups and I got placed with Katy. She rolled her eyes at me and then put her hands up

''Yes Katy'' Mr Donovan asked annoyed

''Sir, Can I please have a different partner?''

''What is wrong with the partner you're paired with?''

''Sir, if you want me to do well the change my partner''

''That wasn't what I asked you'' Mr donovan said

''I paired you with Anna, you guys have been working together on every single assignment''

''Yes... But....''

''No BUTS!.. I'm the teacher, I make the decisons. NOT YOU''

''Okay, no need to get all worked up about it'' She said as she walked over to my table and took a seat beside me

She didnt say anything to me as she sat there. We sat at the table doing our seperate things for the whole lesson. She was on her blackberry doing whatever and I was sitting there thinking about Dmeetri and worried that something might have happened to him but most of all I was worried that he might have just got up and left because he's had enough of me.

''There goes your happiness'' I thought to myself as I made my way to my car.

I got in my car and made my way home, I wanted to go to Demetri's house but I didnt. I ended up going home, when I reached home, I slammed the door behind me and was heading up the stairs when I heard a woman's laugh coming from the kitchen. For a second I thought that it might be Mum, Maybe she's back but all the thoughts of her coming back drained when I saw a blonde woman leaning over the stove mixing something in the pot. I cleared my throat and then my dad looked up at me.

''Oooh, Anna, This is errr..............'' Before he could say anything, the blonde lady walked over to me and said ''I'm Coleen'' She smiled and put her arm towars me for me to shake it

I just smiled and stared at her; refusing to touch her. ''She's the one I was telling you about this morning'' My father said

I didnt look at him, I continued staring at Coleen, ''So you're the one that told my dad about that theraphist thing''

''Anna'' My father whispered warningly

''Yes, it's a pleasure to meet you and don't worry things will be normal around here again'' She smiled

''I made dinner, go up and do your homework then I'll call you down when it's finished''

I stared at her mout opened wide then looked over at my father who was just looking at me like nothing's wrong. ''I'm not a baby, I don't need to go up and do ''Homework'' and things are normal around here, The only thing not normal is you being here'' I said; glaring at her

''Anna!!'' Dad called out

''I'm so sorry Coleen'' He said

''It's okay, It's part of the grief'' she said

I rolled my eyes, ''Anna, Look. Sweetheart, I get it. I understand how you feel, Okay? and that is why I'm here to help you?''

I scoffed ''Help me?! I don't need your help. Thank you very much!''

''And we don't need you cooking for us or coming here and telling me what to do''

''ANNA!!!'' Dad shouted at me

Coleen jumped up scariedly at the sound of my dad's voice but it didnt scare at me. I rolled my eyes and turned around and head up to my room then slammed my door behind me. I went to my bathroom and even though Demetri said that I'd never have to cut myself again, he didnt make me promise and it's not like he was here now to comfort me so I turned to the razor blade. I slit it across my wrist and watched as blood poured out.................